Gotta Love New York

East Coast Lovin'



the graphics was just genius
something so simple as spelling Brooklyn
magnificent, beautiful, creative
and thought provoking

!!!

and even though i must admit im from Queens (lol)
This to me not only represents Brooklyn
But New York City in general

East Coast: We Go Hard!! =]

re: FI.N.A.L.S.

Thank you for those who advised
i would love to follow your advice
really but Marie, she truly is a best friend
Lela and I have this love hate relationship
wait...correction....She has this love hate relationship
with me and unfortunately ive learned to accept that
because i truly cant stop being friends with someone
i care for ppl to much

as for marie im not sure if its a sore spot, insecurities or
even some hidden issue within but as for her me and her will be
friends forever however, i will not fall under and be her doormat
i am defintely not going to be the first one to give in
and act like nothing happened...i shall wait for her
if she doesnt come around then oh well.

but thank you sooooo much for the advice it means alot
petty jealousy is disgusting and i wud never lower myself to that level
but hopefully she'll come around. cross the fingers =]

F.I.N.A.L.S.

Ugh
let me tell you the defintion of such a horrid word

Fudge! I Never Actually Learned Sh!t lol

finals week is here and im am bombarded with studying
gonna take the history final tomorrow
once that is over 2 down and like 5 more to go
its horrendous really but unfortunately to be at the top
you not only have to have style, attitude and grace
but book smarts as well. Ugh for the love of all things cheesy!
apparently im going through some complicated girly drama

alrite lemme tell yo wha happin! lmao
but seriously

i will change their names for privacy purposes lol
Lela and Marie and Joshua

Well me and Lela have been trying to hook up
our friend Marie with Lela's longtime friend Joshua.
Now at first it was successful because he liked her and she liked him
and they were talking ...AIMing all the sha-bang bang!
but he ends up getting a girl
his story is that apparently he was flirting with this other chick
before Marie so the chick finally asked him out and he said yes cuz he likes her too
so yea...now to the main story

me and lela still havent given up on matchmaking them together
so Lela decides to call him, to hang with us after school
which is alrite by me, cuz they need to get with each other
she is sweet beautiful and smart and he is (from what i heard) smart
funny and he's cute (cuz he is not gonna lie)

Well when he comes we all hang out. he starts talking with me (not that type of talking) and making fun of me and my voice lol (long story) and in return i make fun of his laugh (longer story). you know? just all good fun! like nothing at all but people poking fun at one another. Apparently i turn to my left and see Lela and Marie and this other chick (not important) huddled in a circle talking. Now my first reaction is whatever its not important......UNTIL they stare at me. So i get slightly upset because they are my friends, talking bout me and not being discreet! im mean really! if your gonna talk bout me..be discreet lol. Anyway, so later on at home i IM Marie and ask her whats its all bout. apparently i was "flirting ODee" with the guy. Now im a friendly person...but not friendly as flirtacious. I am always usually smiling and laughing thats how i am. No flirting at all. i dont even think im capable of that. lol regardless if i try. Well she says she just let it go and ignored it because apparently its my "nature" and he has a girlfriend. Now this is where i get mad. Its not my nature to flirt and i would NEVER NEVER NEVER flirt with a guy my friend likes. Thats just horrible and petty. Im trying to hook her up with someone...why would i go and turn around and flirt with him! thats just ridiculous. If thats what other girls do then ..thats sad but i dont do that. =/ but that really hurt me because even though we are all close. Im closer to Marie than Lela because we tell each other everything and Lela sort of has this love hate relationship with me. Which i dont condone cuz ive never done anything wrong to her but what can i do? so i would love to know from all of you....who is in the wrong? Because honestly to say bluntly its my nature........my nature, are you kidding me. My nature thats like saying oh i expected you'd cheat on him with another guy, its your nature. Im not sure if it was out of bitterness or anger or deep down resentment (soemthing she has always thought i was) but that hurt and this isnt the first time it has happened. Even with another guy who i was friends with before i even knew she liked him. She didnt speak to me for a week and when i finally asked her after how many times why she was upset she told me cuz she thought i was flirting with him......seriously! ugh! i would never do that to a friend. I love her so much and to hurt her would hurt me! i would never want her to do that to me...why wud i do that. thats like equivalent to stabbing your best friend in the back.

So please tell me:
do i have a right to be angry?
am i at fault?
what should i do?
advice is very much appreciated

thank you and god bless
Ciao Bella

PS back to studying i go! lol

Hating Truly Doesnt Make You Famous

It has come to my attention on The Circle blog that the past picture
of Amanda (member of Bella Browne)was posted on some gossip website and since
then has been some horrendous scandal and people are making it a bid deal. Now im not sure why it concerns other people but let it be known and reminded that what ever a person does in their personal life should not at all concern anyone else. Those nasty rude comments, clearly shows that some people have no lives and see to it that they put down others for their own amusement. Thankfully, Amanda's friends and family have supported her and has called attention to those "haters" to be put into their place. And this got me thinking...what is a hater?

Urban Dictionary defines it as a person that simply cannot be happy for another person's success. So rather than be happy they make a point of exposing a flaw in that person. Hating, the result of being a hater, is not exactly jealousy. The hater doesnt really want to be the person he or she hates, rather the hater wants to knock somelse down a notch.

And it made me think sometimes hating doesnt neccessarily mean your jealous. That is a fact however it does mean you are stupid sometimes heartless and overall insensitive to someone's feelings. Honestly if people can go around posting pictures of people caught in compromising positions whether jokes or personal matters then have you really no shame? It was done as a joke among friends im sure when she was young. To say you have never done something stupid like that and posted it on your facebook or myspace or god knows where else is an absolute lie. She isnt a bad role model you know. On the contraire, in fact she is a good humble girl (i personally dont know her but from what i see and what her friends and family say of her im sure im right) and the picture was meaningless. Leave her be. Keep on "hating" if it allows you to sleep at night but your only giving her more attention then degrading her and you are still considered unknown. So they are not that famous yet. But tell me are you even close to being known. Most likely and i strongly agree: NOT!. Please why dont you go and study or do something more useful with your life but thank heavens she has....

then again ignore me and go find some more incriminating photos...doesnt make you famous but hey! if you sleep better at night then sure why not post away.

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!!

Im Back
Been through alot
and ugh what can i say
im still here
and i thank my personal
lord and saviour
for all that he has done for me
and pray that i will get
through it all =]

be back later for some venting


PS: feels good to be back

Its Over...

Done with
Got Bored
So Left
Now its Over

OMFG...

Thanksgiving is almost here...totally impatient!!

16 more days til that beautiful day

But i was hoping is there anyone who knows what i shud make this year


i got the

turkey
mash potatoes
macaroni and cheese
asparagus and corn (veggies)
pumpkin pie
pecan pie
peach cobbler
stuffing
cornbread
casserole
cinnamon glazed almonds
toffee peanuts


anyone have suggestions??