F.I.N.A.L.S.

Ugh
let me tell you the defintion of such a horrid word

Fudge! I Never Actually Learned Sh!t lol

finals week is here and im am bombarded with studying
gonna take the history final tomorrow
once that is over 2 down and like 5 more to go
its horrendous really but unfortunately to be at the top
you not only have to have style, attitude and grace
but book smarts as well. Ugh for the love of all things cheesy!
apparently im going through some complicated girly drama

alrite lemme tell yo wha happin! lmao
but seriously

i will change their names for privacy purposes lol
Lela and Marie and Joshua

Well me and Lela have been trying to hook up
our friend Marie with Lela's longtime friend Joshua.
Now at first it was successful because he liked her and she liked him
and they were talking ...AIMing all the sha-bang bang!
but he ends up getting a girl
his story is that apparently he was flirting with this other chick
before Marie so the chick finally asked him out and he said yes cuz he likes her too
so yea...now to the main story

me and lela still havent given up on matchmaking them together
so Lela decides to call him, to hang with us after school
which is alrite by me, cuz they need to get with each other
she is sweet beautiful and smart and he is (from what i heard) smart
funny and he's cute (cuz he is not gonna lie)

Well when he comes we all hang out. he starts talking with me (not that type of talking) and making fun of me and my voice lol (long story) and in return i make fun of his laugh (longer story). you know? just all good fun! like nothing at all but people poking fun at one another. Apparently i turn to my left and see Lela and Marie and this other chick (not important) huddled in a circle talking. Now my first reaction is whatever its not important......UNTIL they stare at me. So i get slightly upset because they are my friends, talking bout me and not being discreet! im mean really! if your gonna talk bout me..be discreet lol. Anyway, so later on at home i IM Marie and ask her whats its all bout. apparently i was "flirting ODee" with the guy. Now im a friendly person...but not friendly as flirtacious. I am always usually smiling and laughing thats how i am. No flirting at all. i dont even think im capable of that. lol regardless if i try. Well she says she just let it go and ignored it because apparently its my "nature" and he has a girlfriend. Now this is where i get mad. Its not my nature to flirt and i would NEVER NEVER NEVER flirt with a guy my friend likes. Thats just horrible and petty. Im trying to hook her up with someone...why would i go and turn around and flirt with him! thats just ridiculous. If thats what other girls do then ..thats sad but i dont do that. =/ but that really hurt me because even though we are all close. Im closer to Marie than Lela because we tell each other everything and Lela sort of has this love hate relationship with me. Which i dont condone cuz ive never done anything wrong to her but what can i do? so i would love to know from all of you....who is in the wrong? Because honestly to say bluntly its my nature........my nature, are you kidding me. My nature thats like saying oh i expected you'd cheat on him with another guy, its your nature. Im not sure if it was out of bitterness or anger or deep down resentment (soemthing she has always thought i was) but that hurt and this isnt the first time it has happened. Even with another guy who i was friends with before i even knew she liked him. She didnt speak to me for a week and when i finally asked her after how many times why she was upset she told me cuz she thought i was flirting with him......seriously! ugh! i would never do that to a friend. I love her so much and to hurt her would hurt me! i would never want her to do that to me...why wud i do that. thats like equivalent to stabbing your best friend in the back.

So please tell me:
do i have a right to be angry?
am i at fault?
what should i do?
advice is very much appreciated

thank you and god bless
Ciao Bella

PS back to studying i go! lol

Hating Truly Doesnt Make You Famous

It has come to my attention on The Circle blog that the past picture
of Amanda (member of Bella Browne)was posted on some gossip website and since
then has been some horrendous scandal and people are making it a bid deal. Now im not sure why it concerns other people but let it be known and reminded that what ever a person does in their personal life should not at all concern anyone else. Those nasty rude comments, clearly shows that some people have no lives and see to it that they put down others for their own amusement. Thankfully, Amanda's friends and family have supported her and has called attention to those "haters" to be put into their place. And this got me thinking...what is a hater?

Urban Dictionary defines it as a person that simply cannot be happy for another person's success. So rather than be happy they make a point of exposing a flaw in that person. Hating, the result of being a hater, is not exactly jealousy. The hater doesnt really want to be the person he or she hates, rather the hater wants to knock somelse down a notch.

And it made me think sometimes hating doesnt neccessarily mean your jealous. That is a fact however it does mean you are stupid sometimes heartless and overall insensitive to someone's feelings. Honestly if people can go around posting pictures of people caught in compromising positions whether jokes or personal matters then have you really no shame? It was done as a joke among friends im sure when she was young. To say you have never done something stupid like that and posted it on your facebook or myspace or god knows where else is an absolute lie. She isnt a bad role model you know. On the contraire, in fact she is a good humble girl (i personally dont know her but from what i see and what her friends and family say of her im sure im right) and the picture was meaningless. Leave her be. Keep on "hating" if it allows you to sleep at night but your only giving her more attention then degrading her and you are still considered unknown. So they are not that famous yet. But tell me are you even close to being known. Most likely and i strongly agree: NOT!. Please why dont you go and study or do something more useful with your life but thank heavens she has....

then again ignore me and go find some more incriminating photos...doesnt make you famous but hey! if you sleep better at night then sure why not post away.

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!!

Im Back
Been through alot
and ugh what can i say
im still here
and i thank my personal
lord and saviour
for all that he has done for me
and pray that i will get
through it all =]

be back later for some venting


PS: feels good to be back

Its Over...

Done with
Got Bored
So Left
Now its Over

OMFG...

Thanksgiving is almost here...totally impatient!!

16 more days til that beautiful day

But i was hoping is there anyone who knows what i shud make this year


i got the

turkey
mash potatoes
macaroni and cheese
asparagus and corn (veggies)
pumpkin pie
pecan pie
peach cobbler
stuffing
cornbread
casserole
cinnamon glazed almonds
toffee peanuts


anyone have suggestions??

You've Just Been Tagged!

The Rules Go As Follows:


1. Link to the person who tagged you :

2. Post the rules on your blog

3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself

4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs

5. Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.

1. Link to the person who tagged you : The ever so eloquent and tre chic' J'Adore Fashionista

2. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself
-I am allergic to cockaroaches! (which i dont mind...they are absolutely horrid)

- I am an August baby and a full bred Nigerian (though i was born here) but i hate hot weather.

- I am obsessed with Chocolate (one of my personal indulgences would be the Symphony Bar)

-My uncle is the chief-in-editor of this high posh magazine called aRUDE....

- I AM A BIG FAN OF CW MONDAY NIGHTS...GOSSIP GIRL AND ONE TREE HILL <3

- I am a fan of spoken word (def poetry) and i totally love graffiti


3. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs
The Circle
L. Alexandra
Chronicles of Gorgeous Lynette
Crazy Asian Gal
Lover's Popcorn- Food for the Mind
Stephanie

Thanks for tagging me J'Adore, xoxo Ciao Bella

Update: A New Beginning

Well its been a long time since i updated the blog. Happy November everyone! Life has been a bit crazy last time i blogged. Issues at home and at school. But im am just taking it one day at a time. But the best part of this coming November has to be November 4th. To say i was glued to the tv would be an understatement. Barack Obama is the best choice. This is history in the making...we need to update our textbooks. I've heard a bunch of smack about how he won just because he was black but really i think its more than that. Some feel that it was ignorant african americans who voted for him and that they only voted for him cause he was black but mind you thats just like any republican state that voted for mccain just because he isnt black. Honestly ive said time and time again that yes this election was by far the most popular because we had a first black nominee and a female vice president nominee but because he was so called black...i think it opened the eyes of many, whether black or white...whether young or old. No matter what race it brought attention world wide and made it known that it is very important to vote, your vote does count. Yes it was hyped but i believed it was just hyped in the beginning but once people started to see how calm and collected Obama was compared to the not thinking before you speak Palin people got this reassuring calm feeling from the democratic party. honestly to me When ever Barack Obama spoke to the people, he had this determination that you could truly feel and see he was passionate about wanting to help people. Some say the whole Change motto is just another slogan to put on a shirt along with Obama's face...it may be but i dont think barack felt that way at all. I think he truly wanted a change. I think he wants a future where America can bring back there troops make world peace and still be known as the great nation of before. The speech itself was fantastic. It was captivating beyond anything, i mean it was fantastic. In the beginning of this whole campaign it was like "oh a black guy is running....please!" then towards the middle it just didnt matter anymore it was more of "he wants national healthcare he really wants change" the only reason it was brought up again was because now its like wow for the first time ever we have an african american president. Its historic and its amazing and its not just cuz "he was black" Not only did he spark interest in young voters and the african american community in voting but he also made it possible for anyone to do anything they believe they can do. Yes he might not have experience like McCain but his determination to really want to do something is soo strong thats it hard not to notice what he says when he opens his mouth. I respect McCain so much and i think he would have been a great president but there were just to many things that brought him down:

1. bush reference- because we have fallen under the leadership of bush...to hate a republican isnt at all hard and i guess ppl were tired of having a republican running for president

2. sarah palin- i dont want to say the woman is dumb but for heaven's sake she is unqualified. She isnt articulate she is a hypocrite and she doesnt at all have any experience in nation politics. The woman doesnt know much about America and how she can change it. so why tell the girl she can lead it? Honestly McCain wanted Hilary Clinton supporters and elected a woman...at first i was proud but it seems he really just took some woman who seems like she would generate press and put her as vice president. But he forget to check for some good wholesome smart credentials.....

3. the wealthy- republicans have always had an emphasis on levying taxes on the poor while the wealthy stay ok. And to me that just doesnt make sense....if more than half of the UNited States of America is in middle class.....how is that helping us (we have to pay more taxes compared to the wealthier class) American is not only made up of the middle class but we also support it as well....it still fazes me how we managaed to elect Bush twice.....TWICE!?!?!??


What i think Obama should do is bring McCain into the white house
along with colin powell (who left the bush adminstration because he was tired of Bush's control of America, Biden, Oprah (i kid! lol)...etc

make up a real good cabinet and white house staff


the only thing that worries me is that
because he was so praised on the one who is going to make change
he now has to live up to the task
and right now our economy isnt going to fix itself
in 3 days....we are talking bout a year or two
and i would hate for him to be blamed for the rest of
the misfortune
because lets face it...he bears a big responsibility and he has
to live up to the task


BUt i kno he can do it! Obama passionately cares for America and
now that he is going to be president he will defintely lead us to
the future and towards true democracy and a peaceful and powerful nation